December Madness

Here it is, Dec. 13, only a few days until Christmas.  I am not really in the Christmas spirit this year.  So many things have gone wrong.  My uncle Tommy passed away on Nov. 20 before Thanksgiving My sister Donna, my niece Alicia and her little boy Liam, and myself went to Nashville for his visitation.  He was cremated, so felt like I didn't really say good-bye to him.  I wanted to say good-by to him, to see him one last time and tell him how sorry I was that I didn't come to see him while he was so sick.  It was just difficult to leave when my husband was so sick.  I hope there is forgiveness for him from the family. No matter what happened, he was a good man who worked to support his family, he took care of his kids while they were growing up.  He also served in the navy for a while when I was little, so he is a veteran.  I will only think about all the good times we had, and remember him for being a good uncle.
Well, my step-son Zach is at it again.  When will he ever grow up and take responsibility for his kids.  Now he has been evicted from his apartment, had to go stay with Aaron's niece Chaz for now.  I don't know how long she will put up with them.  Then yesterday, when we had Christmas time with the family, Zach never showed up with Stephanie and the kids.  He told Vicki some stupid lie about his car not working right.  I tried to call him, but he wouldn't answer.  I missed my grandchildren and if I could take them away from Zach and Stephanie, I would.  I may call Children's Services and let know that they now have no real place to live.  Lisa said she would take the kids, which would be better then what they have to put up with now.  If I have to grab them both by their ears and take them around to find a job, so they can support their kids.  I don't know if Zach thought he could have a family, but all of us were just going to give them handouts while they sat around and did nothing all day.  I know Roger is very depressed about this, he doesn't need this stress in his life right now.  I should try to make it easier for him.  I will honestly try harder for Roger, instead of making things more difficult.  It is just sad that Zach let this happen at Christmas time.  If he wants these present and money, he will have to bring the kids over before I give him anything.  I am fed up with their bull crap, time to grow up.  We were suppose to go back to Vicki's today for brunch, but Roger said he didn't want to go.  I can understand him not wanting to go, Zach has ruined our holiday and his kids have to pay the price for his stupidity and laziness.  They will be on the street when Chaz gets tired of them.  They aren't coming here to live, I will leave if Roger says they can live here.  I don't stay here if they are here.  They will tear up my house, and torture my poor dogs.  And make Roger a nervous wreck.  I am just so brokenhearted that my grandchildren have to live like this.  It isn't fair to them.

I haven't been on here for a while, been busy helping my husband, who has been sick for a long time. It has been a stressful year for all of us.  On Nov. 20, my uncle, Tommy Peters, passed away at age 78.  He had been sick for a long time, and he just gave up.  I suppose he was just tired of being sick and tired all the time, going back and forth to the hospital and the rehab unit.  When he started having problems breathing on Nov 19, he refused to go to the hospital and Hospice came in to make him comfortable. He passed away the next day.  I went to Hermitage, Tenn, outside of Nashville, with my sister, my niece and her little boy for the visitation on Saturday.  We came back home on Sunday and it was pouring rain when we left to drive home.
I just wanted to say this, that our lives are not defined by one moment or one day.  We all make mistakes in life, we said the wrong thing to someone, we did the wrong thing and it cost us dearly, someone said something to hurt our feelings, we went left when we should have gone right.  We should be remembered for all our life, how we treated other people, how we raised our kids, how we worked for a living to support our family.  Even people who didn't do these things in life, it is never too late to change, no matter how old we are.  We can start all over again, live life one day at a time and do the things we should have done in our life.  And give our life to Jesus, only He can really change our life and help us do better.  So don't ever give up, life isn't over until you take your last breath.